2012,祝我一路单身

那天,收到一张大红请柬,很惊讶居然是壮壮的。很难想象这么一个喜欢走南闯北的人,居然要结婚了,而且是如此之突然的事。小龙在送请柬的时候说,也许这是家里的要求。然而不管怎样,请柬都已经到手上了,便也成了一种既定的事实,作为朋友的我只能说不论怎样也要去参加他的婚礼。

只是真的没有想到,半年前我出行西藏,在西宁的时候,曾经去看他。那时我们聊着过去的惬意生活,畅想着将来日子是要如何闯荡,未来的生活似乎就握在那时我们的手中,一切感觉是那么的容易。尽管我要回武汉证明我对一个人的感情,但走过西藏之后,也知道那不过是一种回光返照,在结束之后还得再上路去继续我的希望和梦想,而他也忙碌了好一段时间,想着12年能够找机会出国学习游玩。然而不曾料到现在他却要成家了,我实在不知道在今后的日子,又会是怎样的一种情况。

在毕业的这一年多的时间里,身边有好些个朋友也已经结婚了,还有一些朋友正在踌躇满志的迈入婚姻的殿堂。参加了好些次婚礼后,总有一种特别的感觉,早先年曾经充满希冀与幻想的婚姻,逐渐被现实的残酷所打破,而自己似乎也和里面的许多东西格格不入。也是在见证了许多情人,经历了一些人以后,发现自己已渐渐的不再相信爱情。也许是对于他人的失望导致的热情丧失,也有一种可能是不断的历练让自己对自己更加明了,总之宁愿自己独自一人行走,也不希望自己沦陷到生活中去。

两个人之间产生的关系,以及随之而来的责任,既是相遇,便是缘分。我已经明白生活是怎样的一回事,也明了两个人会给生活带来怎样的变化,但我不希望如此。在过去的一年里,我最大的收获其实是增进了对自己的了解,明白自己到底希望怎样,也明白生活是怎么一回事,在不断的磨砺过程中让自己愈发的独立并强大。也非常的感谢胡征带来的那次西藏之旅,那一趟旅途让我的心灵得到了一次净化。

在业已过去的这一年里,我尝试兑现自己曾经许下的诺言,想吧以前没有做的事情做完。谢谢朋友们,一切似乎都还不错。但我知道我还有很多西康发藏在心里,他们等待许久,而实现他们需要更多的时间,也需要更多的努力,我希望能够坚持自己的理想,依稀还依稀记得高中的时候同学在KTV里面唱光良的那首《少年》:

那是我们都回不去的从前,幸好还可以坚持当时的信念。

我不相信一切梦想都可以实现。但是我明白我想去做什么,应该坚持什么东西,对于生活绝对不能妥协。接下来的路会很辛苦,我需要更加强大,在过去的半年里面我努力的锻炼身体,希望在将来的日子能够发挥作用。

在 2012年,我希望生活能够给我更多的苦难,来磨砺自己的灵魂,让自己坚强得能够实现梦想!

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巫山霏云

巫山霏云,87年生巨蟹,文科生,IT男,喜读书,不求甚解,

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